About Me
- Of Noble Descent
- Hello Ladies & Gents, my name is Katrina. For now my second home is my school, Cornell University and I learning and I'm learning to love many things. I feel like who I think I am changes every few months so I just wont even try to explain myself. You wont get me...but here, you'll definitely get a glimpse of me. Enjoy. http://khadijalani.tumblr.com/
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
Part of My Struggle
Whenever I sin against God, it stays with me and haunts me. I feel guilty and I dwell on it. I always end up not reading my Bible and not praying as I should because I feel either too guilty to go to Jesus or I feel unworthy to. I know I am unworthy..but I also know that Jesus died for me. I try to "fix myself" by myself, but I always end up feeling worse off-like there is a gaping whole inside my soul. When I go back to God and repent, I feel filled and whole again. So why do I allow myself to lie to myself? Why do I allow myself to go on days without reconciling with God? I don't know. I'm reckless..foolhardy. I have to stop. But I can't do that on my own either. I feel helpless..but I know I'm not.
Contradictory, huh?
Contradictory, huh?
Be Careful in College
This is something I wrote on a Christian FB group:
Be careful in college.
From first hand experience, I know what it's like when the friends in your dorm are going to a party and you
don't want to be left alone so you go along, even if you do decide not to "party." Being in such an
environment can taint you. It tainted me. I haven't been keeping up with God's Word, I've been going to
parties, and I have been lying to myself. Worst of all, I am a representative of Christ, but I myself am not acting Christ-like.College is dangerous for the spirit and the Devil is thriving in college.
But I will no longer allow him to. I am a daughter of Christ and everything is possible through Christ. I thank
Jesus for his saving grace, because without it, I would be lost and bound for hell. I need to constantly remind
myself that I am not of this world and that the world and its evils, regardless of how tempting, should not
prevail over me. My flesh is weak, but with prayer and staying connected to God I will walk on the straight and narrow.
Pray for me please, I will pray for you all as well.
I was really coming from a defeated place when I wrote this. I felt very shameful. I still do, but I know God will deliver me from it.
Be careful in college.
From first hand experience, I know what it's like when the friends in your dorm are going to a party and you
don't want to be left alone so you go along, even if you do decide not to "party." Being in such an
environment can taint you. It tainted me. I haven't been keeping up with God's Word, I've been going to
parties, and I have been lying to myself. Worst of all, I am a representative of Christ, but I myself am not acting Christ-like.College is dangerous for the spirit and the Devil is thriving in college.
But I will no longer allow him to. I am a daughter of Christ and everything is possible through Christ. I thank
Jesus for his saving grace, because without it, I would be lost and bound for hell. I need to constantly remind
myself that I am not of this world and that the world and its evils, regardless of how tempting, should not
prevail over me. My flesh is weak, but with prayer and staying connected to God I will walk on the straight and narrow.
Pray for me please, I will pray for you all as well.
I was really coming from a defeated place when I wrote this. I felt very shameful. I still do, but I know God will deliver me from it.
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